I go to sleep without taking pain relief and I am woken a few hours later. I writhe around a little before succumbing and swallowing 30mgs of codeine. It’ll knock me out soon so I’ll let you know what’s been going on.
I’ve been in increasing pain all year. A cyst has been growing on the left and I have a new searing pain low down. I am rushed into oncology as always and for the fourth time in my life, second time awake they take a sample without anaesthetic. It’s like being stabbed or what I imagine a small gunshot to feel like, only in my uterus. Oh, and they did it twice!!
I explain my life away to three junior Doctors before leaving knowing it is unlikely that I have cancer and that I will be sent back to gynae to explain my life away again! The junior doctors do help me understand a few things. As they are an urgent medical team they go through my notes very very carefully and explain to me as no one ever has before that my bloods and hormone levels appear normal and even they have no idea why my body is not performing as it should for someone who technically should be post menopausal?!?
For three days I bleed out and sleep. I can barely function at work and my GP calls to ask me to do a urine test to eliminate an UTI and I fall apart – it’s too much.
I am written off from work due to continued pain, ongoing investigations and feeling low.
At first I am flummoxed and refuse; I cannot take the time off work, what would I do and won’t I become further depressed? But then I realise that I need too. I am sick and tired of having this problem, of bouncing from oncology to gynae and back to my GP. It ends now!
During the next two weeks I am going to sort out my pain management, find a Doctor who will treat me and make a plan to have a hysterectomy. I will also rest and de-stress.
I really hope that this is the beginning of the end for me. I had two biopsies and now I have two weeks to get some answers – pray for me my friends. With Love Always x
March is Endometriosis Awareness Month 💛