Fem Friendly Supplements (post 10/103)

In 2015 I took a trip to a health food store to purchase supplements to increase my mood. I bought the usual female friendlies: Evening Primrose, Safflower, B Complex, Black Cohosh, St Johns Wort and some Magnesium and Zinc. I also took a daily dose of Floradix a natural iron supplement. The B Vitamins, Safflower…

More blood tests

The new Gynae wants to know where I am with my menopause so I’m off to have a blood test. I don’t mind the test. It is much needed. I may be sad later as I casually rip the plaster off and toss it into the bin without remark. When there is no one to…

Umbilicus Update #14.3

No matter how hard I try to forget about the past or busy myself with fun things August is always the shittiest month of the year. I start so well. The sun shines, the dresses and the heels come out and I sip gin in beer gardens. I don’t think about it, it just happens.…

Alternative Medicine

August has not been kind to me, it never is. My umbilicus has ruptured three times this month and my mood dipped around the anniversary of my hospitalisation. I wake up at 3am; my body on FIRE, drenched in sweat and tangled in soaked blankets. In the mornings I feel dizzy, disorientated and hot, often…

Umbilicus Update #14

No pain (29.07.20) Sat minding my own business when my thoughts are interrupted by a repulsive smell. I discover I’m weeping Saline and gauze treatment Sharp shooting darts (30.07.20) more annoying than painful Continue saline and gauze treatment. No obvious weeping (01.08.20) Update – After strenuous bouncing weeping (07.08.20) I was discharged from oncology over…

Bring on the trumpets! (61/103)

I am crying on the station platform. I am off to have another pointless appointment at hospital. As always I am alone and there is no one to hold my hand or tell me everything will be ok. I will sit in the Oncology waiting room with the other women who have mysterious cells and…

Crone pt2

I see the old crone here and there I fear the future, so, I linger in the memories of my youth. I develop a mysterious pain in my left elbow which, I take a sign of atrophy I awake at three am with a nocturnal heat I cannot sleep The fog lifts and I see…

Umbilicus Update #13

Last week twinges only Mood fine Sleep pattern fine No bleeding, slight weeping each day Surgery appointment delayed to sometime whenever, maybe never