Umbilical Update #18 / Endo Update #1

Things have not been the same since I had that blogging break. Lockdown loneliness got to me; boredom, poverty and the anxiety of waiting to start my new job. I was fed up of being single and was still dealing with mystery pains. It is now 2021 and my life has turned completely around in…

Women on Top #2

Sorry, I know it is International Men’s Day but Cardi B won Billboard’s Woman of the Year award for WAP! I am in no way a big fan of Cardi B but credit where credit is due – Cardi B and her racy video was the BEST thing to debate with my family during lockdown.…

The Pacha Calendar

There are thirteen moons per year yet only twelve months. I have known this for a while but it’s only been about a year that I could used this knowledge to my advantage. Next year I’m investing in a calendar from the nightclub Pacha. It’s a large wall hanging with a year’s worth of moon…

The Pain Inside (3/103)

They say things come in three’s or is three the maximum before everything becomes simply too much? Last Tuesday Boom, Wednesday Boom, Friday was uneasy but then Saturday morning Boom, Boom, Boom! I tried really hard to continue, to not worry, this was just a bump in the road; but, I wonder why my road…

You’re a Crazy Bitch! (51/103)

I am manic. I am drinking gin and eating a mini babybel to wash down the sedative I have just swallowed. I cannot quieten my mind. Ever since yesterdays MRI I have been jittery and anxious. I am bored beyond belief everyday. Of course I fill my days with things to do, I am a…

Hypothalamic Amenorrhea (post 80/103)

On the 29th November 2019 I was up at three am googling, searching for clues on when I would die of uterine cancer. My menstrual health was good, umbilicus good, mental state and menopausal symptoms all cool except the vaginal dryness which was new and brought on by low progesterone. I have a dry, barren…

Fem Friendly Supplements (post 10/103)

In 2015 I took a trip to a health food store to purchase supplements to increase my mood. I bought the usual female friendlies: Evening Primrose, Safflower, B Complex, Black Cohosh, St Johns Wort and some Magnesium and Zinc. I also took a daily dose of Floradix a natural iron supplement. The B Vitamins, Safflower…

More blood tests

The new Gynae wants to know where I am with my menopause so I’m off to have a blood test. I don’t mind the test. It is much needed. I may be sad later as I casually rip the plaster off and toss it into the bin without remark. When there is no one to…

Umbilicus Update #14.3

No matter how hard I try to forget about the past or busy myself with fun things August is always the shittiest month of the year. I start so well. The sun shines, the dresses and the heels come out and I sip gin in beer gardens. I don’t think about it, it just happens.…