I Want to Feel

“Oh I get so high when I’m around you baby, I could touch the sky, you make my temperature rise; you’re making me high” Familiar words from a familiar 90’s classic. A sensuous, undoubtably sexual song of seduction, intoxication and desire, but, then there is longing. This is a woman alone. She wants the fires…

The Food of Birthdays

He said he’d feed me hangover food which I read to mean I could lie on him and watch a Big Bang marathon. It was not the offer, it was the idea that someone would do something for me, that someone would want to do something for me and I would just relax and enjoy…

After the tears

I cried myself to sleep last night, I could not stop. Tomorrow is my birthday and I’m not happy about it at all. This day last year was the last time I spoke to the Architect, someone who had brought me so close to my dreams then left. Someone who had been my friend, supported…

Fade Out

Mind spaghetti. The disconnection of thoughts. The weight, the severity of things, bearing down on me. Trying to keep my head above. Keep time, keep house, remember the order. Hold my breath, mental Rolodex. Flowers need watering, a dead squashed snail in the bathroom, how did it get there, four minute shower. Train or tube.…

They Do Not Know (pt 2 grief)

In complete juxtaposition to how things are now, the year I left my family home was turbulent to say the least. I remember Mother yelling, Father never there, my older Sister an exotic creature I did not understand and my Brother meeting the love of his life and our relationship began to change. Cherry was…