The New Meds

I ask for duloxetine. I know I will be anxious whilst I wait for the biopsy and results and I need something for the pain. I remember this worked for me once before. They do not question me but put me on a low dose. For the first few weeks I am sleepy, spaced out…

Fem Feels … on walking home alone

I have been awake since three am thinking about women. Fifty-five minutes staring into the darkness. I know I must get this out before I can rest again. Yesterday at work we were debriefed on our position on the Sarah Everard case. My colleagues along with the rest of the country had mixed feelings. We…

Tumour-umour

A few years ago a long, thin object hurtled into our atmosphere from outside the galaxy. The scientist scratched their heads. Neither comet or asteroid in style, this interstellar phenomenon was dismissed. I received my scan results back yesterday. I have ‘something’ it’s not quite an Adenomyosis not quite thickened endometrium. It’s my own Oumuamua.…

Sad Mouth #4

Last year when my umbilicus was bad, my back tooth also began to hurt. I made an appointment to visit my dentist who could not find anything irregular except for a tiny hole. This has happened a few times before over the years so I brushed it off as my mouth/teeth are my Achillies heel,…

Umbilical Update #18 / Endo Update #1

Things have not been the same since I had that blogging break. Lockdown loneliness got to me; boredom, poverty and the anxiety of waiting to start my new job. I was fed up of being single and was still dealing with mystery pains. It is now 2021 and my life has turned completely around in…

The dream without my Grandmother

Three years ago Cherry and Nibzie took the boys to Florida to visit my Parents. On Christmas eve, I woke up in their bed, in the empty house, all alone and let out a disturbing guttural cry. I woke up this morning and could not remember my dreams. I smile to myself because it does…

The Pain Inside (3/103)

They say things come in three’s or is three the maximum before everything becomes simply too much? Last Tuesday Boom, Wednesday Boom, Friday was uneasy but then Saturday morning Boom, Boom, Boom! I tried really hard to continue, to not worry, this was just a bump in the road; but, I wonder why my road…

Blogging Break

I have to take a break. It is 6am and I through my dreams I told myself over and over that I needed to let you know, so much so that my dreams all contained me repeating ‘ I need to take a break’ or attempting to send coded messages until I woke myself up!…