Romantic Rubbish

Yesterday I woke up singing this gorgeous melodic lo-fi song that was Annie Mac’s Hottest Record in the World. This is how I feel. This is all I ever seem to do: Live, Love, Lament … My posts may make for great little reads or amuse me when I wish to be deep in my…

Women on Top #2

Sorry, I know it is International Men’s Day but Cardi B won Billboard’s Woman of the Year award for WAP! I am in no way a big fan of Cardi B but credit where credit is due – Cardi B and her racy video was the BEST thing to debate with my family during lockdown.…

The dream that breaks my heart

It’s 03:03, it really is. I’ve been up since 02:21 and I felt this heaviness as it turned 02:22. ‘All the two.’s’ I said to myself and walked down the stairs. Lana Del Rey started singing and I remembered. ‘Happy Birthday Darling’ I whispered out to Uranus shining brightly at me from the small window.…

The Blue Note

The call finally comes with information of my start date. To celebrate I tell everyone who cares, everyone except Blue and because I cannot tell him I tell you. Yesterday I performed some blog admin (I added posts from 2015-2019 into the music category) and came across the seven about Blue. As I read them…

Different but the same

The atmosphere was highly charged and full of emotion. Two superheroes watched two sunflowers swaying in the soft breeze. Sunlight sparkled over the sea. Side by side, barely speaking they heard a song carried along on the wind. Neither said a word, none were needed; their thoughts were different but the same. Needless to say…

Everything is Changing (48/103)

I began writing this post the 6th April 2019 just before I got the kittens. I knew I needed something to come into my life, something to change or something to be revealed to me. So much has happened since then; I’ve changed. You say you wander your own land In 2018 I spent ten…

Bring on the trumpets! (61/103)

I am crying on the station platform. I am off to have another pointless appointment at hospital. As always I am alone and there is no one to hold my hand or tell me everything will be ok. I will sit in the Oncology waiting room with the other women who have mysterious cells and…

Like no other

Always the same, always the same dreams … I have a dream hangover. I’m feeling bad for the things I did in the dreamworld. I feel awful. I want to get up and go for a walk. I need to get outside, shake it off before it pulls me down. I can feel it happening…

If you want it, say so (let’s Jack)

To whom it may concern … bends and blends like twizzlers (beside every bad boy there’s a bad girl) There is the fear of missing out but worse is the fear of moving on. I have both. I get all twisted in my head – am I making the right decision, what if it doesn’t…

Glasto 2020

I wanna get up close and personal with strangers. I wanna feel their body heat. Push our way closer to the front; no mean feat. Form tightly hand-held chain gangs with my group snaking through the dense crowd. Arrive at the barriers just as the heavy bass and drums start up loud. Lights flashing from…