Fem Feelings … changing the tagline

I wish you all Love, Laughter and Happiness for 2018. I have barely eaten all week. I spent yesterday pretending I had a stomach ache, I knew it wasn’t so I confronted my fears and got it checked out. Last year I had a cyst on my ovary, the year before I bled from a large…

Scar Tissue

Irritation. A rip, a tear. The unravelling of fused skin. From within the dank cavernous channel discomfort stirs. A dull ache drains the remaining energy. Nausea paws clumsily up and down the body. Pain pulsates, throbs, churns. Around and around, hot and searing. Bile rests, burnt back of throat. Body bent forward, breath caught, sudden…

Ethnographic Writing

I opened a sample of a Costa prize winning novel and read it in a few minutes. Clever. Great hook, well done I surmised before closing the Kindle app. I did not pay the £7.99 for it and I did not wish to read on. I read so little these days and have little interest…

Once Upon a Christmas Eve

The bell rang on Christmas Eve, just the two of us were in the house. Rushing down the stairs I wonder who, perhaps another of my sisters last minute packages, perhaps a neighbour, or an obscure family member. Whatever or whomever it would be the doorbell never ever rang for me. Through the porch glass…

Closed for Christmas

I have decided that I do not want to join anyone for Christmas dinner. I can stay here and wait until Wednesday when it’s time to return to work. You will make a bigger deal of this information than I will but I am closed for Christmas. Shutting down. Lights out.

A Haunting

My Grandmother came to me in my dream. Gliding towards me in ceremonial white, oversized purple hued gold framed glasses, a flash of perfectly polished false teeth. From a narrowing original point of nowhere, behind her I cannot see. It is only she and I in a white tunnel. I have seen my Grandmother four…