Invisible Illness #3

I took Diazepam for the first time in a few months. I had been sitting staring at my laptop with my head in my hands since I opened it at 07.30. I was feeling completely lost and unable to cope when I asked myself, why must I struggle? Last night I watched a documentary on…

Invisible Illness #1

Fed up with misdiagnosing myself, I’ll call this series of posts invisible illness as the truth is, that is what I have. It’s been seven years since I started this blog not knowing what was wrong and over a decade since I was admitted to hospital and investigations began. I think it’s fair to say…

Tumour-umour

A few years ago a long, thin object hurtled into our atmosphere from outside the galaxy. The scientist scratched their heads. Neither comet or asteroid in style, this interstellar phenomenon was dismissed. I received my scan results back yesterday. I have ‘something’ it’s not quite an Adenomyosis not quite thickened endometrium. It’s my own Oumuamua.…

I found a lump

If I take my right hand and place it beside my belly button, my thumb is directly above a black cystic mass that is benign. Beneath my middle finger, a gobstopper sized cyst, floats around, suspended from my right ovary. Another smaller cyst bops balloon-like beside it. Their bumping makes them twist and contort, causing…

Umbilical Update #18 / Endo Update #1

Things have not been the same since I had that blogging break. Lockdown loneliness got to me; boredom, poverty and the anxiety of waiting to start my new job. I was fed up of being single and was still dealing with mystery pains. It is now 2021 and my life has turned completely around in…

Women on Top #2

Sorry, I know it is International Men’s Day but Cardi B won Billboard’s Woman of the Year award for WAP! I am in no way a big fan of Cardi B but credit where credit is due – Cardi B and her racy video was the BEST thing to debate with my family during lockdown.…

The Pacha Calendar

There are thirteen moons per year yet only twelve months. I have known this for a while but it’s only been about a year that I could used this knowledge to my advantage. Next year I’m investing in a calendar from the nightclub Pacha. It’s a large wall hanging with a year’s worth of moon…

Women on top

Finally, after days of counting a new president has been elected. I have no public comments on how America is governed or by who but I’m delighted to see America has their first female Vice President and even better that she is half Indian and half Jamaican of African descent like me. This means so…

Samhain

I had an uncontrollable desire to strip off and run around naked under the blue moon’s light, so I did I’m in the Cotswolds. I’m here with Preeti for a relaxing weekend before the second lockdown and to enjoy the last holiday before a socially distanced Christmas. We drank cocktails and watched scary movies and…