A new follower

Things are strange right now, its 02;38 and I am awake at my desk reading a new blog. Simone E is pregnant, what a wonderful experience; congratulations. Her blog is real and emotive, I read through the posts and I am happy for her triumphs. I am also happy with where I am and together…

05:05 Ready for my Next Steps

My Nan Marga dies and I wake in the middle of the night thinking of her and her legacy. She had nine children, one miscarriage and gave a secret child away. Marga gave the only-days-old baby to a woman who was infertile and that means something to me, although I am not quite sure what…

The Big Interview

Thank you Sarah and Paul M for taking time to read my dream post. I don’t get much traffic these days as I’m rarely here. Life has changed for me and I’m unsure if this is this best platform to share and worse I’m unsure what exactly I should be sharing. I do however want…

Fear and Loathing in Virginia

For the last six weeks I have been glued to the Depp vs Heard Deformation Trial. It allows me to check out of my own life as I listen intently and consider how I would deal with the issues from both sides; putting my own problems on hold. It is the end of the month…

The Big Thank You

I’m up late listening to emotive music, drinking wine and wondering if I’ll continue this practice of staying up late thinking (and drinking ) for much longer? I don’t know. I ponder whether this is a creative outlet, an inability to sleep or simply part of my routine? The last few weeks have been so…

The Moon in the last degrees of Aquarius

The moon is looking at me in it’s waning gibbous state. I eyeball it suspiciously as have given my last six weeks to humanitarian causes, but, I am feeling different tonight, I want to enjoy myself. For weeks I have dealt with the lives of others, working long hours and volunteering on my days off.…

Awake at 4am

Not ‘kinda awake’ but fully awake at 4am I begin to search for reasons why. Over the last several months work has been boring, uninspiring and monotonous, so I applied for a secondment and I was sky rocketed back into my needs, wants and desires. Over the last two weeks excitement has propelled me forward…

An Arty Farty Idea Revisited

In May 2017 I excitedly wrote that I had an idea I wanted to try out. Four years later, the idea remains as does a crippling fear that I cannot make it happen. In the last post I claim to make art that made me happy, but, the truth is, I am searching for something…