Romantic Rubbish

Yesterday I woke up singing this gorgeous melodic lo-fi song that was Annie Mac’s Hottest Record in the World. This is how I feel. This is all I ever seem to do: Live, Love, Lament … My posts may make for great little reads or amuse me when I wish to be deep in my…

Women on Top #2

Sorry, I know it is International Men’s Day but Cardi B won Billboard’s Woman of the Year award for WAP! I am in no way a big fan of Cardi B but credit where credit is due – Cardi B and her racy video was the BEST thing to debate with my family during lockdown.…

The dream that breaks my heart

It’s 03:03, it really is. I’ve been up since 02:21 and I felt this heaviness as it turned 02:22. ‘All the two.’s’ I said to myself and walked down the stairs. Lana Del Rey started singing and I remembered. ‘Happy Birthday Darling’ I whispered out to Uranus shining brightly at me from the small window.…

The Blue Note

The call finally comes with information of my start date. To celebrate I tell everyone who cares, everyone except Blue and because I cannot tell him I tell you. Yesterday I performed some blog admin (I added posts from 2015-2019 into the music category) and came across the seven about Blue. As I read them…

Shout out for more – Breakout!

When explanations make no sense, when every answers wrong I’m drunk. Drunkity, drunk, drunk! I’m in my pjs singing loudly and feeling great. I drank a whole bottle of Prosecco and threw in a sedative. I only ate a cod fillet on a head of lettuce. But who cares? I feel amazing. You’re fighting with…

Alternative Medicine

August has not been kind to me, it never is. My umbilicus has ruptured three times this month and my mood dipped around the anniversary of my hospitalisation. I wake up at 3am; my body on FIRE, drenched in sweat and tangled in soaked blankets. In the mornings I feel dizzy, disorientated and hot, often…

Different but the same

The atmosphere was highly charged and full of emotion. Two superheroes watched two sunflowers swaying in the soft breeze. Sunlight sparkled over the sea. Side by side, barely speaking they heard a song carried along on the wind. Neither said a word, none were needed; their thoughts were different but the same. Needless to say…

Everything is Changing (48/103)

I began writing this post the 6th April 2019 just before I got the kittens. I knew I needed something to come into my life, something to change or something to be revealed to me. So much has happened since then; I’ve changed. You say you wander your own land In 2018 I spent ten…

Black Jack’s Black Cat

The best parts of my character diminish before your very eyes the minute I talk about feelings. For all my intelligence, logic, rationale and reasoning I lose credibility within the first few sentences as no one and I mean no one likes to talk about feelings. I did not understand this phenomena until I discovered…