Dreams, Downloads & Dustbin Junk

It’s 04.11 and I woke up about an hour ago in pain. I had a terrible headache and knife twisting abdominal pain. I had been dreaming about the Beckham’s. I were sat in Victoria’s kitchen and we were talking about when I used to babysit her children. She was asking me about the girls from…

Well-Being Week

Today starts a week long event at work where staff are encouraged to down tools and take part in a variety of events held in the ground floor offices. There will be workshops, talks and practical sessions encouraging lifestyle support, relaxation and a chance to stroke puppies to de-stress. I am facilitating the art colour…

Fem Feels: on failure

I survive. Yes, in survival I succeed, in everything else not so much but despite everything else not going so well I’ve never felt like a failure, until now. I guess it’s the culmination of never quite making it, never quite getting ‘there’ or the shocking year on year scraping by. Last year I said…

Insecurity & Fear

It’s going to have to be another Brené Brown day. I’m fully dressed, laptop on, sitting up in my bed and freaking out. I have three jobs to apply for but I’m so scared. Yesterday was rent day and I couldn’t cover it by £12. I’ve not been out, not bought anything aside from essentials…

Aunty Duties

My Mumsy asked me to come over this weekend, I didn’t want to, I wanted to stay in and be in my feelings. My Bister (big sister) then called and asked to see me so I agreed. We had a take away then an early night. I said I’d sleep with the baby, he’s been…