The dream with the liquorice

“Do you want some liquorice?” I look into the small paper bag at the quarter of liquorice allsorts. Tempted by the black stranded wheel I smile cheekily as I take out the pink one. “Of course you’d pick the pink one!” Laughs Black Jack as I wink at him. Earlier two women had burst into…

The dream with the curse

At the start of the week I feel drained and depressed. The Aquarian full moon energy was too strong, entering abruptly (as Aquarians do) with its truth. On Monday as the moon hit its fullest, I had a disagreement with Fido on the phone and went on to have the following dreams: It begins with…

2022

I wake feeling slightly better than yesterday but then the post-lady delivers me more bills to pay I have no milk and the longer I think my mood rapidly begins to sink Is this snakes and ladders I play? Always back at the start, never passing go back on my merry-go-round never collecting 200 of…

If You Leave Me Now

After six days of saying and doing the right thing I fail spectacularly on the seventh. It was not a solo effort it was the two of us combined but nevertheless in the silence I wonder what I did to make it go wrong. I sit here numb. There is a part of me that…

Baby Elephant Ballet

Currently sprawled on my floor drenched in sweat; thighs, calves and butt destroyed! Give your girl a high five as this baby elephant is committed to her craft! It’s week two and if last week was comically amusing as I tried to follow instructions in french, move my arms and feet to a rhythm and…

Umbilicus Update #14

No pain (29.07.20) Sat minding my own business when my thoughts are interrupted by a repulsive smell. I discover I’m weeping Saline and gauze treatment Sharp shooting darts (30.07.20) more annoying than painful Continue saline and gauze treatment. No obvious weeping (01.08.20) Update – After strenuous bouncing weeping (07.08.20) I was discharged from oncology over…

Connected Beyond Reason (16/103)

At first I thought it was Gold Glitter that made you look over at me and smileDid shimmering sparkles evoke memories and playful happy times?Was it in my carefree nature or twinkling friendly eyes? Was it the youthful manner in which I welcomed surprise?A wondrous bright light that attracts beamed across from me to youEncouraging…

Bring on the trumpets! (61/103)

I am crying on the station platform. I am off to have another pointless appointment at hospital. As always I am alone and there is no one to hold my hand or tell me everything will be ok. I will sit in the Oncology waiting room with the other women who have mysterious cells and…