4am Whispers

Whilst you were sleeping I sat up in bed thinking wondering why at that particular hour I have complete clarity of mind I hear wings and feathers falling a dream dances away lessons to be learnt stay Whilst you were sleeping our ancestors came showed me the way taught me to pray blessed another day

End of an Era

I am struggling with my friendships but, this is nothing new I’m sure you do to. It’s 04.55 and I feel strangely alive after dreaming about a boy who I know recently died He told me to forgive you to try and see through those times you turned your back on me but I cannot…

King of Cats

I wake up out of sorts. I sit, stand then walk around. I can’t relax. I’m both hot and cold. I awoke in the early hours from my slumber and now I’m discombobulated. Efforts to comfort or console me are batted away. In the kitchen I’m drinking juice and tea simultaneously and I’m unsure of…

The Art of Listening

I interrupt him as I always to do to say something trivial. It sparks a memory within him that overtakes his entire being. He smiles at me as he starts to relay a deeply personal account of a visit to hospital to see his ailing father. In his soft outer London accent he describes in…

Fem Feels … on living alone

March is almost over – yay I made it! I made it through the month without spiralling into depression or suffering any major anxiety attacks. I started the month requiring an MRI and am still yet to have one. I was seen by the cancer clinic, a 4cm cyst was discovered as the cause of…

Utterly Exhausted

I am so sick and tired of being so very sick and tired. I am so fed up but I can’t shut up and all I do is moan. And if not the moans then painful groans, or the nighttime crying, which is always done alone. I apologies to friends and family but really I…

Moaning March Dumping Ground

On the last day of the month I will have attended either a doctors or hospital appointment every week this March. On the 31st, in the uk, we lose an hour as we ‘spring forward’ and I will finally have my long overdue MRI. It is also my annual ‘Happy No Baby Reminder Day’ Wow,…