300 & 36

Thank you to all the new followers, I am delighted to have three hundred readers and visitors to my little blog. Today is also my birthday and I am happy to report I am excited and inspired. My little blog has grown so much this year as have I and I really thank you for…

After the tears

I cried myself to sleep last night, I could not stop. Tomorrow is my birthday and I’m not happy about it at all. This day last year was the last time I spoke to the Architect, someone who had brought me so close to my dreams then left. Someone who had been my friend, supported…

Fade Out

Mind spaghetti. The disconnection of thoughts. The weight, the severity of things, bearing down on me. Trying to keep my head above. Keep time, keep house, remember the order. Hold my breath, mental Rolodex. Flowers need watering, a dead squashed snail in the bathroom, how did it get there, four minute shower. Train or tube.…

Workshop #2

Possessing a decent lexicon and the ability to vocally express myself I am shocked to note how much I use my hands to speak. The hands circle wildly as I describe things by wiggling my fingers and miming. My classmates and I are still learning about each other so as my emotive, spiralling mind tumbles…

A little bit in Love with you

I had a dream I accidentally said ‘Love you!’ as Red left my new apartment. We both froze, I in mortification, he in embarrassment for me. I hadn’t meant it like that, I regularly throw a Love ya out to people I know, it’s just what I say, I just hadn’t quite said it around…

6am Sadness

I wake up abruptly, forcing my eyes open, adjusting quickly to the darkness, scanning the space beside me for the outline of you, but you were not there. I must have been dreaming as I can feel the warmth of your body, the rhythmical rise and fall and the soft sounds as you exhale. As…

They Do Not Know (pt 2 grief)

In complete juxtaposition to how things are now, the year I left my family home was turbulent to say the least. I remember Mother yelling, Father never there, my older Sister an exotic creature I did not understand and my Brother meeting the love of his life and our relationship began to change. Cherry was…