Limbo

I develop a chesty cough whilst on the White Isle with Cherry and my cousin Nicole. I’ve been running around half naked, super drunk and in altered states. I overdo it and my body punishes me by plummeting into Do Not Disturb mode for a week after. My medicated dreams bring up hidden fears on…

Restless Writing, Dreaming & Confidence

Sometimes, when moving boxes around or reorganising my bookshelf I find essays and drafts of ideas from when writing was my focus. What happened? The last decade was filled with so much writing – when was the last time I wrote, like really wrote? I think about my motivations. I no longer create stories or…

A new follower

Things are strange right now, its 02;38 and I am awake at my desk reading a new blog. Simone E is pregnant, what a wonderful experience; congratulations. Her blog is real and emotive, I read through the posts and I am happy for her triumphs. I am also happy with where I am and together…

05:05 Ready for my Next Steps

My Nan Marga dies and I wake in the middle of the night thinking of her and her legacy. She had nine children, one miscarriage and gave a secret child away. Marga gave the only-days-old baby to a woman who was infertile and that means something to me, although I am not quite sure what…

The Big Interview

Thank you Sarah and Paul M for taking time to read my dream post. I don’t get much traffic these days as I’m rarely here. Life has changed for me and I’m unsure if this is this best platform to share and worse I’m unsure what exactly I should be sharing. I do however want…

The dream about the big project

I am sacked from my job following a complaint by Chuck Norris. I am successful for a role as an event planner and not any event, the year end celebration. Chuck Norris’ band have been booked following a successive show last year. I tell him we will put aside our differences whilst working in this…

Umbilical Update #20

On my third set of antibiotics my open wound finally closes – yes, it’s been open this whole time! Later today i am having a scan. I have a painful lump, bottom right of my umbilicus. It’s the same lump I’ve had before, is it a hernia, a cyst or a fibroid? Whatever it is,…

Everything, Everywhere (all at once)

I don’t do film reviews so this is not one. It’s 3am on the dot and my brain is whirring. The film is on my mind – why? Yesterday I had my monthly 1:1 with my manager. I told her more than I ever had before. I told her of my increasing anxiety, the effect…

Fear and Loathing in Virginia

For the last six weeks I have been glued to the Depp vs Heard Deformation Trial. It allows me to check out of my own life as I listen intently and consider how I would deal with the issues from both sides; putting my own problems on hold. It is the end of the month…